special day....

today is a very different day tat i have b4...
2day i din feel sleeply lo...
although whole day din sleep neh...
so holiao...so funny...
haix...bt im stil thinking of another thing tat i so worry abt it...
he smoking again d...
jz now..when i wana take something from his bag...
i see tat......gt cigarrete..
so...i know tat...he smoke again d...
in tat time..i relly felt so sad...
cz he lie me..
b4 tat..he gt promise me tat he won touch tat thing after 14 of dicember...
but..he cant...he really cant do it properly...
wat i should do??
i din hate him bcz of tis...
the reason tat i don want him smoke is bcz of the health...
nt cz tat i dont like and i hate tat...not.....
i wanna tel him...bt...
dunno how to tel...
i only tel him tat....
i so hope tat he won smoke..cz i dont like the ppl tat gt smoking...
2nite...when i know tat he smoke again...
i really dun know wat should i do..
i stil can believe him??
i stil can help him to stop smoking??
all of this...i dont know...i really dont know...
bt...i really so hope tat he wil change..and stop smoking again...
how how i should tel him???
i should tel him tat..i hate him if he stil want to smoke??
cant...i cant say the things like tis to him...
bcz he is an important person 4me..
bt wat should i do??????
haix...i dont know..
when i was found tat he smoking again...
he tel me tat..after tat he really will try to stop its...
so.....wat???i dont know...
b4 tat i really felt so angry..bcz he lie me..
bt...when he said sorry with me and tell me he really wil try to control hiself..
at tat time...i din angry d..i trust him agains...
so.......at the end...im the loser..
cz i stil want to believe him...
then???
haix....
geram....
why me is like this wan???
maybe...for the other gals sometimes oso will like tis wan....
maybe all the gals are almost the same wan gua...
i think like tat...bt...dont know tat tis is the truth or nt....==
bt.....
now.......
i relly hope tat...
he can control properly...
and stopped it in shorter time...
i will always at his side to support him.....
gampateh ya..@@

I want find a job to do.....

job...
i still finding...i must find it faster..
because im facing some financial problems...
i wanna cry d la...if i still cant find a job to do...
i really will die..if i didn't have things to do i really felt bored and bored...
bored til i wanna faint d...
if im not wrong..maybe all of my friends now is feel very free and very fun because spm already finish d...
maybe they all are get fun at the other place or anything....
haix...after form 5 d..my dream comes truth d...
but i so hope tat the time can restart...
restart from the child maybe is better than now....
now...i have so many problems to solve...
so muz so muz...
waliao!!!
omg!!!who can help me??
i want find her and talk with her...
but every time i find her..she also don't want reply my message...
why?why?why?
she hate me d?bcz of tat day?
i don't know...
but i hoped tat the truth is not like this...
but if really is like this...also nvm la...
cz.....
all of this is my problems....
haix....

灰色的天空

灰色-对我来说是不好的象征；
只有当我心情不好时才会想起他。。
今天的我突然又想到这个颜色了；
因为今天我的心情并不是很好。。。

怎么了？我们俩的关系怎么变得那么疆呢？？
我和她；曾经是那么的要好。。但；
为什么一切都好像在那天开始变了呢？？？
为什么呢？？她好像都不理我了；
她好像讨厌我了。。跟我说话的语气也变了...
我们到底为何会变成这样呢？？
我始终猜不透t_t
也许是因为我吧。。但；我却不明白....
我真得快疯了；我好怕我们的感情会这样的恶化下去...
可是我却不动摇怎么样解决它~
嗨........
我现在都好像很难找到她了；
因为我怕去她家了；因为我没脸见她妈妈了...
我竟然为了一件那么小的事情跟她妈妈没大没小地说话！！！
我真的好后悔；但我不知怎么面对她妈妈并对她说声“对不起，我知道我错了....请你原谅我好吗？？”
但...当我每到她家时..我竟然提不起勇气走进她的家...
我突然间觉得我好没用；我实在太没有用了...
我要回我们当初的感情...
但这一切真的有可能吗？？？
我并不知道...但..
应该很难吧！！！！
我真的是个好每用的人...
竟然做出这样的事情...
请原谅我好不好？？？我真得知错了...
我以后都不敢了啦...请你们原谅我好不好？？？
我下次都不敢了....真的不敢了..= =

过去；现在；未来。。。

过去的我，觉得时间过得好慢；
但；不知不觉 ~ 时间就过了。。。
五年？？五年就这样过去了。。
而且还是一去不回头的##
现在虽然已经毕业了。。但；并不觉得开心到哪里去。。。
为什么现在的心情并不像上次的心情那样呢？?
原来毕业并不是那么值得开心的一件事来的；
原来毕业以后的我们，还有好多好多事情必须去烦恼的；
我现在终于明白了。。
现在的我正烦恼着好多东西；
学业；工作；前途等等都必须烦恼的。。。
原来人的生活并没有那么简单的 ~
这件完了就要烦恼别件事情；别件事完了就必须烦别件事情；
烦啊烦的。。要到几时先才能完呢？？
我的前途该怎么办呢？
我怕我的成绩变不好。。但；
却懒得去温习。。我所怕的事情全都很难解决；
~ 因为我的关系。。。
真是的！！本来懂事的我为什么会变得那么不会想呢？？
但。。我下定决心了！！
我一定要拥有好的前途。。为了达到这个前途；
我为我自己订了一个目标；
一个必须达到的目标。。。
希望我真的有那种耐力以让自己成功达到那个目标！！！
加油加油哦！！！
朋友们。。为了你们的前途而努力的打拼吧；@ @

我毕业了咯。。^^

今天的我好想突破一哦。。
嘻嘻...
so f@st..de time pass already....
all my friends included me...
wanna 18years old d lo...
time???
why the time pass so fast o????
my dad said that..i wanna be adult d lo...
waliao..adult??i don't wants...
i wanna be a child forever...c@n b0???
wak@kak@...
i know cant la...u all don't smile o...
cz i know that almost all of my friends are don't want be a old people o...
h3h3x...(i know eh...^^holiao le???)
if can bcome a child again u don't want meh??
lol....don't kckc d la...
we all are de same wan la...
h@h@h@....@@(jangan pukul saya o...i just write de truth nia ma...)
now...i always thinking about...
what work i wanna do after finish de studies??
i don't know!!!hahahax...
what can i do le??
apa perkerjaan yang sesuai kpd saya le???
lol....
omg...so many things i gotta think abt...
can have someone help me think all of this??
at h3re...i wanna say g00dby3 to all of my lovely friends...
hope u all have a better life after our spm finish o...@@
(if have time...u all oso can find me go shopping or anything eh o....
no need worry o...i will go eh..i promise ya@@
h3hex..

好后悔哦~~~

不知不觉~
考试都要完了咯。。
但是。。这次的考试对我来说并不是很顺利。。
真的是完蛋了；
怎么办？？我的大马教育文凭考试就这样完了==
值钱的希望全都摧毁了。。
我的梦也醒了。。但这一切都迟了；
我只知道这次的考试真的完蛋了。。
我家人会怎样呢？？
他们会骂我吗？可能不会吧。。
因为他们对我彻底的失望了吧；
因为他们绝望了吧。。
现在的我只能。。。
只能对他们说声 “对不起；真的真得很对不起~因为我让你们彻底的失望了。。”
我只能说这句话而已了；
“临时抱佛脚 ”。。这应该可以算是我的专长吧；
就是这个个性让我的成绩变得这样的。。
所以啊~
对于其他人啊。。
千万别像我这样了；
后悔了。。但；都太迟乐；
现在的我就算怎样后悔都来不及了。。。
现在的我能做些什么呢？？？
成绩出炉时我应该用什么心情去面对呢？？？
我怕。。现在才来怕；
好好笑哦；怕了又能改变什么吗？？？
笨蛋啊笨蛋！！
事实已经成定局了。。
没有用了啦。。。
谁叫你不听老人言呢？？
这只能怪我自己了吧。。。
来不及了啦。。我也后悔了啦。。T_T